Leather Strap On (bondage_heart) wrote,
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11-16-04

Went to the Alexander premiere in Hollywood. met everyone from JNF which by the way was awsome. I saw my love, Angelina Jolie. she was beautiful! more than usual. other celebs were there but meh... anyways too much went on that night and I don't feel like telling the whole tale *lazy* so here is a pic.

BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH I love her :o face!
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I wish Vampi could have been there :(

11-17-04

Got in trouble for going to the premiere.... <_< 11-18-04 Blah, just a regular day I suppose....I feel sort of empty and lonely. Like I need something emotional. soemthing to make me feel alive. something to capture and awaken my emotions. I've been thinking of her lately. I don't want to. but some times I can't help it. I wish only to hold her. but I don't think she is meant for me. deep inside I know she isn't what I'm looking for or what I need now. I need something or someone new. someone to catch my eye. someone who is willing to give it one more try. with me. I really need that. 11-19-04 I went to a Ska show at The Allen. it was okay, not really my thing. but it was nice. I found my brothers ex there, I didn't recognize her at first. she looks so different. I found myself very attracted to her which was weird and very eewwww. I think I have a crush on a guy. that is really weird, I have a crush....on a guy. anyways, I made out with andrew. he says he really likes me. I wonder if it is true. sometimes it seems like it is.I wish I cold feel the same. but he isn't someone for me. He could not keep up with me. In the end I was making out with him. even though I had told myself I would no longer fool around. I realized I needed more than this. I need more than this. much more. I need something very emotional, very deep and very real. I don't think I have found someone that I could have that with. but I try not to worry or concern myself with it. I try to think I have all my life to find that person...but how much of my life do I have left to live? I hope I find someone or something to lighten up the mood in my life at the moment.There are some people I find myself wanting to like. but I can't. for one reason or another, I can't. or rather, I shouldn't.
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